We finally hanged out at the beach. After constant weeks of quizzes. Had relaxing day together.
Typing through tears to be honest. I'm too angry to keep my emotional in kept. Seriously, I'm too angry to relate everything, but I just want to let out my anger. Just to let her know that, if you are so free to find my spots, then start doing things yourself. Now I realise that who I should really look out for helping you in return I earn a scolding, anger, and misunderstanding. Then sorry I'm really incapable of doing anything.
Saw my sis yu online, will meet her for kfc to cease my anger. Right back down to work. Bloody bitch!!
Didn't went out yesterday, went home striaght to play AUdition. Have you download the game?Sis Sandra I think you can download and play with me since you are going to be free after your exam. Have already got my license for Novice Level. Now, I'm a level 6 Novice Dancer. It is just so cool, to see how they dance.
Alright stop dreaming, Hubby just inform me yesterday that he will be going back home on the 31 October to see Mummy. So nice, finally he is going back after so so so so long. Think his mum will be so so so so surprise he put on weight. Heez.
On the other hand, I'm quite worried that I'll miss him alot alot for that 2 weeks. If its one week I'm still fine. So i decided to fill up my 2 weeks with alot alot of activities.So all my sister have to be careful. Haha.
My checkup result is out. What you expect, of course its normal. See no need to spend my 50bucks away. Today will be a short entry. Dint have much to write, except for missing hubby and missing hubby and missing hubby only.
I'm home from dinner. With a friend, Edmund Tan Gay Siong, whom I've not met up for 10 years! hahahaha... yeah... my primary school friend.
His workplace is so near to my home! Just 10 mins walk! I told him, free come up to my house clean my room. >.<
We went to Suntec City for dinner. There I saw Kwang Chek. What a buddy lor! No time to eat with me but got time for his Crystal Jade La Mian! #$*#@_$#
We headed to Gelare for drinks after dinner. We just sat there to chat, enjoying each other's company. 10 years of stuffs to catch up. But time was passing fast and it was 10pm. He sent me home after that.
Though we didn't spend much time together, but we promised to meet up often and call each other frequently. 10 years and we still are as close as how we were before in primary school.
In addition, my sister Ling has 5% increment. Another happy occasion for I'll be getting another treat from her. ^_^
Went Movie at the end of my work, watch Rob-B-Hood at Tiong Bahru Plaza. Hubby went dinner with Sun, Cynthia, Naveen and Moli.Realize that I miss them alot, I'm too use to Rasa life that I don't enjoy my work here at all. I always listen stories from Sun, Chicken and Hubby, and I always feel that how I wish I was there. There's no time to regret, I need to live with it sooner I hope I'll blend into this environment.
Recently, I'm very close with Evelyn. She is my motivation to continue work here in the Hotel. She had a mix of Sun and Julie and Ade when she's angry. Talk to her alot, we both miss our life at Front Desk. Office job are really very boring. Humans are like that, always not satisfy with what they have. I'm trying and I'm learning.
Told Evelyn that I've the watched the movie before, and she nearly strangle me in the theatre. Lucky I dint tell her before hand if not I think she will tear away the ticket. See very Adeline right.
Today suppose to wake Hubby up at 11.30 but he woke up early so I just give it a miss. Yesterday I forgotten to wake him up, so guilty but he understands.He should be having his break real soon any moment heez.
Just finish my appraisal, My director is very please with me and gave me 5% increment. So excited wanted to inform my hubby now but he is already at work.Actually my director trust me alot, I can feel, she is very flexible on things as well. Its not as bad as what the rest have said her to be. I believe I'm the only one that can really understand her, I don't think the rest are true in being with her. So lonely right, I'm the angel. ^_^
Today will be the day for me to Level up my avatar, I still need 1 more level to enter Novice and today will be the big day for me. I'm so crazy about the game that I thought I should install in Hubby's computer so that he can play his Xbox and I can complete my level.
Suppose to meet ade and gang for clubbing, as I mention in the previous blog, I can't make it. After my director spoken to me, I feel that I must really be responsible in my work. Although I mention that I miss Rasa, but I realise that here treasure my value so I should really buck up and work so more calls more reservations, I'll make sure all the occupancy is 80% and above.
Today is a hectic day for me. Din't realise I've not blog for today til my dearest Miss Ong reminded me to blog.
Its a mad house in the morning, rushing contract and doing up template for the proposal of new contract. Feel very guilty that I have to reject Ms Ong for the clubbing night on Thursday, have spoil her day some how. Poor girl miss me so much but don't dare to admit.
Yesterday, met up with Peishan and Baozhu. We are planing to have bowling session but the bowling lane is full, thus we end up in KTV. Serve Lynn right man, uses all my might to sing and reach the high notes. I've died yesterday, now i revive with a somewhat "better" voice.
My boss had invited 3 monks here for prayers to bless the hotel, and also bless us. Took the oppotunity to be bless and hope the bless I achieve can influence my close one, especially Ms Yanny. She's having her exam soon hope she really fly with her marks if not I think she will fly from her building.
Had a weird call just now, a guy call up to look for a girl. Apparently, he have call the wrong number, but he do not seems to realise. Since I'm so stress he is been blast by me. Poor him but I'm not guilty. Think Hubby will give him one punch cause he is quite stress as well.
Today will end with a Movie Rush with Evelyn and Sylvia. Movie to watch Rob B Hood. Yes have watch it with Ying Ying and Sun but cause I've agree to watch with Evelyn for along time its not right to tell her I've watch it. Evelyn if you are reading this, please pardon me for my white lie.
Time to submit my blog to Ms Adeline Ong Jia Yi to vet through.
Today was sure helluva day for me. Overslept thus being late for class. Met Ling's mother on my RUSH to the train station. Didn't have time to talk to her for awhile. Feel so bad.
Had EE3002, 8086 Microprocessor quiz today. Argghhh!!! Talking about that quiz makes my blood boil. I could have gotten full marks! If it wasn't my carelessness!!!
Q: What's the size of 8086 segment?
My answer: 16-bit
Correct answer: 64KB
WHAT THE SHIT!!! (2^16)/1024 = 64KB!!! Why didn't I write 64KB!?!?!?!? My perfect scoree!!!! #$&#@Q(&#_$(&@#
Received tons of birthday messages from friends. They surprised me. Thought they have forgotten. Coz I nearly forgotten my own birthday. Went to school with the mobile phone charged fully, but by 2.30pm, the mobile went flat. =.=''' too much messages. *I'm not complaining*
As my mobile was flat, "he" was unable to contact me. Luckily Raymond was with me. We attend lectures together. "He" had to call Raymond to get over the phone. "He" told me "he" was coming over to pick me up after school. Couldn't really concentrate on the lecturer after we hung up. The thought of meeting "him" later kept my heart pounding. But I'd to listen for dear Raymond couldn't understand a single SHIT about what the China lecturer was mumbling. Raymond depends on me. I'd to understand by hook or by crook.
Lecture ended. "He" really came to pick me up. The 3 of us walked over to "his" car. "He" was walking first, followed by me and Raymond. Then "he" opened the door and presented me a bouquet of lilies. AND RAYMOND WAS STANDING BEHIND ME LOOKING AND GRINNING!
"He" really caught me unaware. I wasn't even thinking of receiving any presents from "him". Only the thought of seeing "him" was imprinted in my brain.
"He" gave Raymond a lift to Boon Lay station, then we headed home. On the way home, "he" gave me another present. This time it was a wallet. I'm in need of a wallet. That's what made me fall for him. "His" observance. =)
Though we didn't celebrate my birthday and our 1st month as "he" had a quiz tomorrow, I'm happy no doubt about all the events that "he" made them right at the end of the day.
I'm so looking forward to saturday evening, for we'll finally be spending time alone. The quizzes are already over for me today, but for "him", "his" last quiz will be on next saturday. This coming saturday will be quality time for us.
I'm glad that I'm celebrating my birthday with my family. I realised that when I'm with "him", my relationship with my family are no longer strained. I am so much closer to my family than before, compared to my past relationships. "He" understands that I want, need to spend time with my family, friends, my studies and myself. Yet also, we manage to find time for each other. Both of us are librians - always searching for a balanced life. The more I think about us, the more I feel that we're really compatible and meant for each other. "He" understands me, and I do too. In studies, as friends, as lovers.
Really contented to spend my special day with my family, and saturday with him. Gonna meet up with my god-bro for dinner as he's gonna treat me a birthday meal. My buddy, Kwang Chek and another of my friend Paul owe me a present each. Hahahaha... But right now, the my room is smells of lilies - my favourite flower...
Did i mention about Audition?? Its such a cool game. Please if you are free and have no aim in life. Do try it. www.auditionsea.com This is my main aim now, everyday rush home to up my level. Currently at level 5 after 2 days.
Seriously speaking I'm very proud of myself. Still a Stiffy, but one more level I'll be Novice and hitting the floor with the finish move. It is actually a dance battle kind of thing. Orignate from Korea so the songs are all Korean, it is only some remix that they have other songs in is that we may find farmiliar, but what fascinate is the dance move. The avatar can really dance if you complete a set of command.
Its so cool, now my bond with my brother improve so much cause of this game. I'll introduce hubby and my close friend to play. My brother and I are so close that we nearly strangle each other. *Cough Cough*
Oh my god, still sick. Been coughing so badly that I have tears rolling out. This is bad, but medical is even worse. I'll recover with KFC heez. Alright short entry can't write cause missing Hubby. Tataz...
Finally have time to blog awhile... Today is a boring day... Ade is not here to accompany for the day... Oh ya, promise Ade that I'll blog about my friends. Think this is the time to do it.
Hmmm... How to start I really have no idea, am listening to Jay's Ting Ma Ma De Hua. I'm down with a very deadly disease, flu and cough... and cos of the stupid coughing i'm having a irritating sore throat. Who shall I pick for my first angel? Let the closest do the Talking...
Rohit Ghale, 24, Male, Nepalease. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa, Initial Impression, He is bullying Emily Lim. After awhile impression, he don't know how to speaks Mandarin. Now Impression, I love him alot. Right on, he is my hubby. Hmm... Dun question about how we got together, Its a mix of everything. Its just bizarrely happen. However its the greatest things ever happen. Thank you for being there. Alright this will be a quick one too shy to blabber on... NEXT!!!
Julie Tan Pei Yan, 21, Female, Local Aunty. Spoted in Henderson Primary School. Lost and found in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. She is one hell of a innocent aunty. Knows alot in life but dun follows. Have her own set of thinking. My greatest sister ever. Best thing to do with her Slumper Sleepover Mahjong Event... Was attracted to her cause of SCV. am still hanging out with her cause of her care. She is my blubbelicious baby.
Ng Pei Shan, 22, Female, Local Driver. Spoted in Henderson Primary School. She is the one who i am with all my life. In pri sch, sec sch, poly. Even when we are working now, we do meet everyday. We even wanted to learn Tennis together. Wait for us to be the best tag team in Singapore. Best thing to do with her, waiting for her at her void deck to go out, esp for suctec before our concert at Victoria Hall. Love her for her cool attitude, her friends comes first theory and her consideration.
Sandra Chan Rou Yu, 22, Female, Local Opposition. Spoted in Outram Secondary School. Skinny, strong gal who always eat alot. She is one cool babe who do the opposite of wat u want her to do except for studying. Ha. Too determine too stubborn Too much essence of everything. My Another blood sister the another half owner of this blog. Attached to her cos of jealousy i just want that figure ^_^. Best thing to do with her mugging exams at her kitchen with the radio blasting!! She is one lady you can;t miss she can give u the greatest advice but she just dun follow. Why? cos she is the opposition. HAHA I love you mei mei.
Serene Tan Xue Ling, 22, Female, Local Mysterer. Spoted in Outam Secondary School. She is a gal who have a sense of dressing. nice figure. innocent mind set. Pretty face and cherry character. I love to hang out with her cos she is always so casual. She always so Aiya anithing. You just want to be so carefree like her sometimes. Love to debate on our thinking. Best thing to do celebrate our birthday together. Although she always missing in action, but she always reappear every year on our birthday. Although we dun meet often, but we are mentally bonded.
Joleen Ong Yu Ling, 22, Female, Local Parang Sales Executive. Spoted in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. One cool ah lian who brings foldable parang whenever she goes. Attached to her cause of security. Level headed business woman. Best thing to do with her, Rushing our project overnight at Julie's house. Midnight Maggie Mee Rox!! Love her for her mildness, level headed, bargaining skill. She's a VIP who only comes out when big event is on, but i just love her ^_^
Melissa, 22, Female, Local Blander. Spoted in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. She is the same species of me. Love her for being me. She is a cartoon, careless, forgetful, adbsent minded. She is so fun loving, friendly, lovably. BEst thing to do with her, last min clubbing at anywhere and hugging each other to dance ^_^.
Adeline Ong, 21, Female, Local Giraffe. Spoted in HR office Rasa Sentosa. One cool gal with a big red specs. If I am a cartoon, she is a looney tune. I dun know why my life is curse of meeting all the cartoon looney tune and disney fellows. Best thing to do with her, running and sun tanning at Siloso at the end of our shift. Love her to be so concentrating that she will go gaga over small things. Love her for giving so much for something she is determine. Love her for being so Goofy. Ong sista rulez!!!
Naveen Nicholas Edwards, 23, Male, Indian Caucasian. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. He is my daddy. attached to him cos he is after Adeline!! Admit it your true love is Adeline. Ha, but he is happy in love with Emily Ng. So have to congrats them, Adeline u are safe. He is one cocky fellow I have ever met. Best thing to do with him, sit down and enjoy the scence of Adeline and him quarrelling. That's entertaining. Too bad it wont happen again. Cos the proud giraffe just XXX opps... talk to much... NEXT!!!
Bae Sun Jung, 22, Korean Penguine. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. She is my first true love before meeting Hubby. Best thing to do with her rushing for morning queue at the counter and running our usual smooth afternoon shift together. Love her for having the same chemistry with me. We have the best teamwork bond. Nothing impossible is impossible for us when we are together. We can think better. Although now she starts to be fierce but she will always be the best mummy bear ever.
Ma Ying Ying, 21, Local Vampire Catcher. Spoted in Rasa Sentosa. One small kid that i met in the nursery playing with reg card. Best thing to do with her, running afternoon together with my partner on MC. She is fast easy and initiative. Dote her alot cos she is flexible in many ways just like her ah gong. heez. build a happy family cos of her. She just brighten our days with the goofy answer and action. See how many times have i repeat the word goofy, i realise all my friends are goofy.
There is still alot and alot and alot... but i'm very tired. Spending an hour to describe so little peep. Am tired. oh my brother just introduce me to Audition. Damn fun. For peep who are interested to know wat it is you can view there, www.auditionsea.com it is so fun we can battle it out everyday. Oh Hubby brought me to Vivo City as well, its so crowded, but definitely a shopping heaven. 1st December i need to whine my hubby to bring me there again. Alright folks gotta go.
Finally finish my closing for last month... haven't been blogging for so many days... Went to see Doc for check up... Its pain... haiz... gals gals... always have to suffer from all this... first we have mens every month... then we have pain for the 1st 2 days... then before we have mens... we have a reminder call PMS... to make it worse... we can't eat much on our mens... now i need to go checkup every year...
Enough of this sickening topic... Firstly let's congratulate my dear sis Sandra for clinching her first attachement deal haha... got a job le... can treat her older sister good food... what a good life I have...
Am blogging half way... There's this lady now coming for interview for Lynette's position... She is a pretty gal to me... However Evelyn think otherwise... Alright Difference opinion on pretty gals...
Hmm talking about Evelyn... Have spoken to her and have a idea creeping up my mind... I want to protect her... She is a strong gal who been through alot and mature alot... Still she is so fragile and helpless... Once a friend always a friend... and she is so much like me... except for the temper she differs...
Meeting Sun and Ying today for the Mid Autum Festival... So nice... Haven;t see my Chou Chou for ages... Miss her alot alot... >_< heez... Ok let's turn back to my check up day...
Took leave and went there for appt at 10.00... Sweetest part is yet to come... after my appt... my hubby came down to meet me... very sweet right... Had coffee at coffee bean and went around for my shopping spree... cant find things at all... I just do not have the feeling of buying anithing... haiz... been walking round and round but come down to nothing...went home rot and go home keke=p
Short entry for the day... but full bliss for the day... haiz... no matter how much i decribe you wont feel it... cause you are not Lynn... Back to work Back to work... hur...
Finally back home from "his" birthday celebration. Yep! Today's "his" birthday. "His" 23rd birthday. "He" is a librian too! Anyway, I'm too tired and exhausted to blog everything in details. Another wonderful day spent together.
Today is sure one happening. I skipped school (4 hours of lecture) just to get prepared for my very first official interview at 2pm. I didn't sleep well last night either. Dreamt of "him" preparing for EE3001, giving "him" tips on the quiz, and dreaming that I was late for my interview!!!!
I reached my place of interview, Institute of Microelectronics, IME - a member of A*STAR, exactly 1 hour before my scheduled time! Miscalculation of time. Well, better early than late! >.<
Finally my interviewer arrived at 1.30pm. He was caught unguarded that I was already waiting for him since 1pm. He asked me if I wanted to start the interview at 1.30pm or at the scheduled time at 2pm instead. Well! I wasn't mentally prepared for the interview at 1.30pm! My mind was prepared at 2pm! So I replied, "I'm fine with both options. But if you're busy now, I can wait for the scheduled time." But since he was free, we proceeded to the interview.
In the conference room, I showed him my results ranging from secondary till university together with my testimonials. He just flipped through my documents, and looked at me, "So you know this project which you're applying for is to design a magnet that will magnetise pathogens in water so as to purify the water?" blah blah blah...
I had to show him that I am with him throughout the whole conversation with him. That's where my skill in paraphasing comes in handy. I paraphased and clarified and asked questions pertaining to the project. He was kinda taken aback when I asked him, "How long as this project been going on? Or is it a recently launched project?" Rule number 1, interview is a 2 way thing. You must ask the interviewer questions. So as to show that you are with him in the entire conversation and you're interested in the project.
He didn't even asked me what are my strengths, weaknessess, the usual bunch of interview questions which I prepared in the morning. I was geared up to answer any of his questions. But he didn't even pose me a single question! I'm not complaining!!!
The funny thing about this interviewer was that he asked me, "So when can you start? What's this industrial attachment about? Do you need to do a report or anything?" Which I replied, "Yes, I've do a report. How detailed the report is dependent on my supervisor." In which he said, "Oh! When you mean your supervisor, is it from IME or your school?"
I was a little shocked that he didn't know the whole procedure of this Industrial Attachment. I replied, "From what I heard from my seniors, is my school's supervisor." And here's the catch! "Ok. If you need any more details in your report, tell me. I'll help you to get a good grade."
This was my reaction -> !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally he said, "Well, I don't see any reasons to reject you." Upon saying that, he gave me his name card after that, telling me to send him an email when I'm done with my exams so that I can start on the project ASAP. I reminded him that he has to notify my school that he has decided to take me into his team, which he said he will do so.
Aaaahhhh!!! I cannot believe man! A*STAR!!! Such a prestigeous company!!! I'm soooo looking forward to Industrial Attachment! Learn to my heart's content!!!
"He" just told me in msn minutes ago, that "he" never read my blog again, for "he" wants to hear about my feelings through himself. Damn. I can't blog now. My feelings are in a mess, my mind is spinning out of control. I'm losing control. Feels like screaming...
Life is full of suprises. I just told my parents that I'm going out last night and I'll be home late. My dad didn't question me. Just simply said, "Don't come home at 5-6am."
My mom asked me what time did I reach home, and where did I hang out. I decided to tell her the truth. Told her I reached home after 1am and I went to drink. She didn't throw a ruckus! AMAZING! I was prepared for the meltdown from her. Yet, all she asked was, "What did you drink? What's volka? Don't go to those places where there're smokers. Be careful when you drink, later you get spiked." I just reassure her that I only drink with the company I trust and I finish my drinks before I leave them out of my sight.
Just 10 mins ago, papa asked me what time I came home. Told him exactly what I told my mom. That I went drinking. He didn't even criticise me. This is really what I didn't expect from my parents. Life is really going way much better than I can imagine.
To "him",
Thank you for last night
For your company, your booze and your words
You've all along been by my side
And I've been oblivious about your existence
Only till now
Have I noticed you
You've been walking alongside with me
Through the difficult times
Without any whimpers
Even when you're not required to be there for me
My life is so full of suprises and joy
All because of you
You brought them when you entered into my world
Everything seems inconspicuous
Nothing seems to sparkle
Except you
You don't mind my past
You don't mind my brashness
You love me for who I am
And I'm truly blessed
When I'm in a mess
Lost and wounded
It was you who came
And held me up
You saw through me
The strong facade
Which many are taken into
After all the tumbles and pits
I'm glad to have found you
And you who have been waiting patiently
I don't care what others think
What others say
For all it only matters
Is I'm safe in your embrace, your love
I don't remember my past
I see only the future
A future so bright
With the road we will walk through
Together You and I
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Just reach office. Wake up at 8pm. Very late. Was very happy yesterday as my hubby brought me to meet his old boss and ex colleagues. Everyone is so so friendly. Went to dinner at Marche @ Suntec.
Met Hubby first at the bus stop beside Pan Pacific. He just cut his hair. So adorable. Hmm... Maybe I shouldn't use that. I should say still as suave as ever. Went to Marina Square to look for Marche as he keep insisting it is there. Emily Ma called using Naveen's hp then we realise that it is at Suntec. Heez... So Cute right I think my hubby just want to stroll around with me that's why he gave me the wrong information.
Finally Reach there early still waiting for everyone. Michelle Justin and a gal who they call Xiao Mei is there when we arrived. Had a sumptous dinner, finally hubby treats me a very delicious dinner. Thank you so Much Hubby... Muck!!
After dinner we went for drinking at 2 places. One the Sportsman and the other The Oz bar. Its is a very pub place. Not like the modern drinking place, but so what! I'm there for my Snowball... Yum Yum... Poor hubby he have to drink 3 tequila shots cause his baby cannot finish hers. >_<'' Hubby even went up to perform. Din't have the Photo uploaded but I'll definitely post it in my next entry. What song he played? Hotel California, he's just so cool with the guitar for any song.
Hubby sent me home, should give him the credit for the whole night from dinner til journey home. Hmm I think my devil only lives at night. As soon as i reach home and freshen up, it lurks into me. Waited for his msg and to no avail. Negative thoughts creeps in. Many many thoughts demoralising me. Ultimately I give him the benefits of the doubts. Wake up at 4, no msg still. I feel myself evaporating. Msg him again and again, feel so stupid at the end of the third msg. Can;t sleep the devil just don't want to go away. Went to watch 1 epi of the vcd then sleep. Today waking up remorseful about the msg. Sms hubby to ignore the msg still feeling unbalance.
Been finding ways to kill the devil, I do not know who to turn to or complaint to. Think blogging will be of much help. If you all are sick of me complaining about myself, just need to close the window.
To Adeline
Maybe we can go visit the phsychatrist together. Maybe he can help me thou. Hoho.
Back to work. Today is the Gallery BBQ day.
It never pays to be good to others. They only take you for granted. After you're of no use to them, you're discarded like a piece of garbage, with no hope of clearing your name.
Went out for a movie last night with "him". We met at Dobby Ghaut, Plaza Singapura. As usual, at 3pm, just 2 hours before our meeting time, I was already feeling the heartbeat, the nervousness yet yearning to see him. Feels like butterflies in the stomach. Just the thought of him can accelerate my heartbeat. I think I'm dying of terminal illness...
We caught the movie - The Devil Wears Prada. It's a good movie worth watching. But the catchline is, it's even better having him around to watch the movie with me. Even doing simple things with him makes everything seems so enjoyable. I enjoy watching movies with him because we're both able to analyse the films, exposing each other viewpoint. I mean, this is so much fun than just watching the movie itself. It's so booooooorrrinnngggg.
Had dinner at Carl's Junior. I thought "he" will seat himself opposite me. But "he" sat next to me. Honestly, I couldn't breathe back then. *now my heart is accelerating again even when I'm only blogging!!!!* "He" just kept looking at me and I didn't know where else to look. The air is closing onto me... *feeling faint*
Our food came. The michievous "him" as usual will perform stunts. After "he" was done with "his" share of food, "he" went to fiddle around with my onion rings! =.=''' Double daring me to eat it when it's stacked up like a PILE OF SHIT! The couple next to us, kept staring at us. I don't blame them... 2 crazy people, laughing their heads off, together with a pile of onion shit in front of them. As if they're worshipping the shit.
Had a wonderful day, though it was just a short n brief outing. As quizzes and exams are approaching, we felt that it was necessary to reduce the amount of time chatting and meeting up. I am very relieved that he sees the same view as me. For I was once afraid that if I were to broach the subject, "he" might speak like how "that guy" used to speak, i.e., So you don't wanna meet lar? Monday to friday not enough time to study? Whew... It's really a load off my mind... It's really different when you've someone who's studying in the same faculty and school for he'll totally understand your situation perfectly well.
We made a pack that after the quizzes are over, we'll only go out once a week. Until the exams are over, we'll spur each other on...
Met Charlene yesterday at Macdonald for dinner and rush down for Zuan's grandma's Funeral. Spoke with Zuan's mum and mingle with her sisters. Its nice to see everyone accept it as grandma accept it too when she is still alive. She is a strong and optimistic grandma. Grandma I really salute with all my respect and might.
Heard a great news from Zuan, she is getting ROM in January. So happy for her, after all the tumbling and banging, she have finally found someone she love to spend her whole life with. It makes me wonder what we really look in life and what are we anticipating from it. Its always the "and then" that is always probing me. In life people come and go... and then... At a stage we have boyfriend... and then... Finally we are married... and then... Heard that she is holding a simple ROM reception. Realise that we are all maturing, already at the stage where people go and people create new life.
After the funeral session, Charlene came to my house to rush her Business Law assignment. So great of me to help her figure out the question and is driving both of us crazy. To be honest, Law is always not my style as i can't memorize my books. Got a D grade for my Business Law in Poly days. If you think that is distinction u are wrong. Its just a passing grade borderline grade. I'm just not talented to study.
I'm so excited today. Hubby ask me to meet up for gathering with his old colleagues. I never thought that I will be associated with these type of gathering as Hubby never wants to join the my gathering. I'm simply exhilarated. I told everyone on MSN. Sometimes its just a simple invitation but it can drive me to cloud nine. He is a facinating guy that can drive my emotion to extreme level. He is able to let me tear for no reasons, smile for no reasons, and anticipate things for no reasons. Its going to be our Half year mark soon but the feeling is so fresh like it just happen yesterday. Having him around is remarkable. People complaint of being attached but they like to be attached. Contracdicting species in deed. I'm not complaining, I love the sensational feelings that he gave me.
Its already end of the month. I'm getting edgy again. Why is it so repetition that I have to go through this every month? Sometimes I was thinking how come her BF don't mind about the situation now, or am i that petty and particular about it. New month come and a new month for me to count the days. I trust him I really do but the devil inside me to take advantage of me. Rekindle... This is what the devil always says. I'm going crazy trying to exorcise the devil out of me. Always trying to plan my days with friends to drive the devil away from me. I'm still not satisfy. Why? Am I that greedy and selfish? Don't to lose him, this is what I always afraid of. Why will I demand more. He have compromise on anything i request. Why am I still not happy and still begging and dreaming for more? Fighting on the thoughts have become my hobby recently. Maybe I'm really insane. Deep down inside me, maybe I do have a gene of a devil.
This is the first entry from me, so I should make an introduction. This blog is shared by My sister Ms Sandra Chan Rou Yu (SCRY) and me Ms Lynn Ong Shu Ling (LOSL). We are a pair of good to the bones sister. I wont leave much entry til when its necessary. Right let's blog.
To Sis...
Thanks for sharing the blog with me. Lets make it a remarkable blog. At least i'm update with ur life and you are update with mine. When you are down I do know where to look for you too.
Met up with Peishan, KwanGhim, Sor Cher and Baozhu as we are celebrating Baozhu's birthday. Her exact date is actually today.
To Baozhu...
Don't think you have any chance to see this entry, but I wish you all the best in your future endeavours.
Went to a very nice restaurant in a rundown building in Tiong Bahru. Its a Hong Kong Cafe, think some of you will know about it. Review of the place, its atrocious. The service is average, the serving is slow. Drinks came slow so are the dishes. If you thought goods things are meant to wait, think twice. The food is just average. Lotsa MSG not good for health thou. One thing that is reasonable is the pricing. It is a very affordable pricing which everyone can afford.
Luck for Baozhu and me, our dish is still reasonable not as bad as my Ms driver Peishan. Her black pepper is Weird. Hmm. Baozhu's treat for the dinner. Awesome. Will try to post photo here ^_^.
Went to Mt Faber Safra for bowling session. Its a very fun game althought everyone can't make it except for Mr Khim. Had the ritual cutting cake session at the place. We had her an Apple Strudel and a long candles of Happy Birthday. Its sweet and nice. Ambience - Perfect.
In the midst of the bowling session, had a msg from Zuan. Unfortunately sad to say, her grandmother pass away. People grey and left. Things are so unpredictable. These philosophy everyone knows. Still it is not easy to see the close one left you for another place.
To Zuan...
Hope you are strong enough to face the situation... We are here... Shuling is here... Charlene is here... Suwoon is here... If you are feelings you weak vains... We are here to embrace you...
End the day with a weird feeling of lost. Hubby, having headach at home. Working too hard and resting too little. He is like a small boy who do not know how to take care of himself but wanting to take care of others.
To Hubby...
Please do take care of your health. It is more important than work. To me you are very important to me. So for my sake you have to take care of yourself. I dont mind you bald and with a tummy. Bleah.
The anklet that "He" made, binding us together.
I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
Oooh - what if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do
I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by
Should I
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's mean to be
All in time you'll see
I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say
I'll
Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Blind faith will lead love where it has to go
Never let him go
And in your eyes I see ribbons of color
I see us inside of each other
I feel my unconscious merge with yours
And I hear a voice say, "What's his is hers"
I'm falling into you
This dream could come true
And it feels so good falling into you
I was afraid to let you in here
Now I have learned love can't be made in fear
The walls begin to tumble down
And I can't even see the ground
I'm falling into you
This dream could come true
And it feels so good falling into you
Falling like a leaf, falling like a star
Finding a belief, falling where you are
Catch me, don't let me drop!
Love me, don't ever stop!
So close your eyes and let me kiss you
And while you sleep I will miss you
I'm falling into you
This dream could come true
And it feels so good falling into you
Falling like a leaf, falling like a star
Finding a belief, falling where you are
Falling into you
Falling into you
Falling into you
Finally awaken from my slumber sleep. Had dinner out with 2 of close friends, Shuling and Vincent. As usual, my sister would pester to have KFC whenever we meet. I really hope that it's not because I've a KFC ambassador look.
Went to "his" house in the afternoon before heading to meet my friends. We played "his" PS games. "He" is really a true blue gamer. "His" library of games is indescribable! I played one of "his" freaky games, titled something Fatal Shot, where I've to go around capturing ghosts with my camera. I'm a scardy-cat. Hahahaha.... even when playing a ghost game, I screamed as well. No horror movies!!! Wait... hold on... that is subjected to who am I watching it with. >.<>.<
We went to our hangout after leaving Shuling's house. Our hangout has become a drug to me, to us. We visit it almost everytime we're out. The wind, the sand, the waves, the carefree, peaceful and tranquility all merged into one. There "he" gave me another suprise. In all, "he" has given me a total of 3 suprises, which comprises of sight, feel and hearing. All of them which he made them himself.
"He" knew I've been searching for an anklet all this while. And "he" made one himself. It's not easy for "him" to make one, considering that generally guys don't do such stuffs. "He" was worried that I wouldn't like it much. But "he" was wrong. I know the effort "he" put in. To others, the suprise may not worth much. But to me, it's invaluable, priceless. Gifts should not be weighed by the scale of currency, but the thoughts and efforts that are incomparable.
"He" helped me put the anklet on. And it's my favourite colour. We both have each. Mine on my right leg, and "his" on "his" left. Somehow, I feel like we truly belong to each other for whatever we do, things just seem to fit perfectly. We're both binded together by "his" handiwork - the anklet. I'm blessed. Blessed to have "him" in my life, blessed enough to share a phenomenon - a shooting star in the beach with him.
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I went to catch the movie - The Host, with Joel yesterday. Felt that the movie has lots of depth in it. While watching the movie, I was trying to analyse it. Suddenly occured to me the time where "He" watched the chinese film - The Banquet with me. Both of us were analysing the film together. Such fun. Such vast exchange of knowledge. I was late in meeting Joel thanks to the episode of Shopping spree Part 2.
After the movie, we headed to Crystal Jade La Mian for dinner. I ordered my all time favourite - 酸辣汤拉面. Joel was kinda amazed that I can pretty consume much for my size is inproportional to the food comsumption. We hanged around Suntec City, killing time while waiting for "Him" to pick me up after "his" family dinner. Joel brought me to Esplanade roof terrace, where it was the first time for me. There I could have a clear view of the open space performance by a group of archipellos. They sing pretty good. I'm amazed that they sang one of my favourite chinese song, Kiss Goodbye, by Wang Lee Hom. And they're malays! OMG! I feel so ashamed of my chinese-ness. I seek comfort that I am still able to recognise certain chinese characters, my chinese name and most importantly, being able to distinguish the vulgarities.
"He" finally arrived at 11pm. We headed to our favourite spot. Running in the sand. Swinging each other in circles. The first time I waited for someone for almost 3.5 hours, it was darn worth the wait.
Continuation from Shopping Spree Part 2...
introducing casts:
-shopping spree banker: mother
-shopping spree reciepient: "she"
-shopping spree victim: papa
-scene of Distraught 1: Tiong Bahru Plaza
-scene of Distraught 2: Great World City
-scene of Distraught 3: Home
On a fine saturday afternoon, approximately 12pm, a family of three headed to Tiong Bahru Plaza for lunch. "She" decided to play the role of a filial daughter, by accompanying her mother to shop, since papa was not even a electron interested in shopping.
Stage 1
Mother wanted to get a pair of shoes, dragging "her" to a shoe stall. There was where the start of the war began. The glittering shine of the shoe caught "her" eye, disengaging "her" from her mother's arm. "She" advance slowly, cautiously towards the glare and sucummbed to the temptation... $30 victory to U.R.S. Inc, with mother not purchasing anything at all, but "her".
Stage 2
Both parties advanced to Great World City, with mother intending to buy only a 2 pieces of clothings for "her". The cave was enticing "her", with treasures and jewels surrounding "her". "She" was busy choosing "her" riches, oblivious to the look of horror on mother's face. While only trapped in the horrendous cave, mother suffered a thrashing defeat of $264, with only purchasing 1 blouse for herself while "she"
Stage 3
Mother left "her" to head home by "herself". There "she" had to face the ultimate king - Papa. When he opened the door, his eyes nearly popped out, staring at the amount of carriers she was carrying.
Stage 4
Ending to be decided by audience.
Finally I'm home from a shoppaholic day! As I stated below, I skipped my GE today. Quiz is over. And the GE is so freaking boring, listening to oldies. Not classic oldies mind you, but real oldies, southern accent type. In addition the lecturer have something against Jay Chou!!! =.='''
Thus, "he" and I met up after my class. Friday is his "self-acclaimed" no school day. "He" was waiting for me at dobby ghaut. As usual, my heart thumps at a high frequency of 1GHz whenever we arrange to meet. As what "he" describes, whenever his heart beats furiously, mine does too. "Our hearts are talking" - his favourite phrase.
We went to Takashimaya to check out our favourite mooncakes. Like me, "he" prefers snowskin mooncakes. We really have quite alot in common that binds us, yet differences between us that intrigues us about one another. After lunch and mooncakes, we went shopping. All along I've never entertained the thought of shopping. However, shopping doesn't seem to be such a torture to me when I'm with him. It's the company afterall. We have so much laughter and enjoyable moments, peace and tranquility in between us.
"He" bought a shirt from Bosinni. I am beginning to enjoy shopping with him. We have almost similar taste in clothes. After purchasing his t-shirt, we went to do some serious shopping. Looking for a new bag for my old bag *the blue flowery one* is torn pathetically, and also to purchase a shorts that I've been eyeing for quite some time.
"He" really took the "job" seriously. We toured every floor, every single shop in Far East Plaza for a bag. And finally I found the bag that quite caught my eye. And it's the exact same brand as one of his bags. Affinity?
I nearly couldn't have purchased my shorts, if not for his persistant belief in looking for the shorts at the Giodarno branch in Citylink. I finally found the design I've been looking for, as the branch in Orchard as run out of it's stock for that particular design.
Dinner was on him at Pizza Hut. "He" only eats Haiwaiian pizza, which is actually my favourite. After dinner, we went to our 2nd favourite usual hangout place, Esplanade. Our all time favourite spot is where the photo of the full moon was taken. We'll be going there tomorrow. Can't wait for tomorrow to come.
"He" told me that it's about time that I learn to start pampering myself, instead of spluring money on those who don't appreciate what I've done for them. To speak the truth, today is the first time in my 21 years of life where I really feel like I'm on a shopping spree. And it feels great, especially when "he" takes the initiative to carry my new bag full of notes, and my purchases. No one has ever helped to carry my bag before. "He" didn't even mind if it looked "girly" on him. He just didn't want to see me carry heavy items. I'm truly touched. I'm not one who allows any Tom, Dick or Harry to carry my bag and he knows it. Yet I feel thankful that he does it without any wimp or complaint, but it's a pleasure for him instead.
I think I've struck rich. Exactly as what "He" experienced.
Blog maddness on the roll!!! Just finished my DSP quiz not long. Here I am in EEE iHUB with Raymond next to me. He was so suprised to know that I actually have a blog. What's up with the assumption that I don't blog? >.<
Went to school with Raymond and as per always, tons of crappy things to talk about. And the topic of the day today was yours truly.
Raymond commented that he's pretty afraid of me at times, for he said I can be domineering at times. Hmmm... I agree that I can be domineering, but I don't remember being domineering to him. I practise selective memory. >.<
I was also described as an "iron woman". Honestly, Ray's not the first person to use such adjectives on me. He said my character is very much suited in a Man's field - engineering. Thanks Ray. You remind me of Jeffrey Tan's "power suit" feminism. =.='''
I explained to Ray why my character is as such which he described. My mom is the eldest of a total of 4 siblings. She lost my maternal grandmother at a tender age of 13. Thus, she had to undertake the responsibility of an elder sister and a mother. She had to study and work at the same time, to support her siblings and maternal grandmother, for my maternal grandfather remarried and did not pay much attention to my mom, my uncle and aunties. As I was brought up by such a strong woman, it's not suprising to become strong-willed. But sad to say, I've been described as stubborn, ignorant and selfish by some.
I don't bother about what other think of me, be it good or bad. I just know that I love my mom for who is she, and how she brought me up, to stand up tall despite all falls and survive no matter what. Survive for those around you, and for yourself. Nothing's more important than life itself.
Just finished mugging for tomorrow's Digital Signal Processing quiz. Don't think I studied real hard for it, but I got bored from studying for 2 quizzes this week. Well, since I'm able to understand what the lecturer and tutor are saying, I decided to take a gamble and just read through my notes and tutorials.
Introduced Grace to "him" today in msn. They got along pretty well, thanks to the fact both of them are gamers. >.<
Quite happy that they get along pretty fine, for I care for both of them. I mean, it's important to know how to relate to your "partner's" group of friends.
Talking to Shuling at the meantime in msn. She has been quite protective over me after what happened between me and my ex-boyfriend. We're gonna meet up for dinner this coming monday. And she said she expects "him" to pick me up after dinner so that she can scrutinise him in person. She said, "If he cannot even do something so simple to woo a girl, he won't get my approval." I feel so doted suddenly.
To him: You better know how to handle my sister, since you claimed that you're good in handling situations, so my sister should be a piece of cake to you then. *snigger*
To Ling: Way to go for your self-acclaimed acronym LOSL & RG - Lynn Ong Shuling & Rohit Ghale. I'm really elated that you've found your Mr Right. *Muacks*
I've a picture of him right now.
Very tempted to upload in the blog.
Don't know if he'll be unhappy about it.
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Should I?
Should I not?
Sharing the beautiful sunset with him.
All the heart-stopping moments always happen only when he's around.
Peace, serenity are the feelings that I get when he's by my side.
No conversation required.
No physical contact required.
Just lying down next to each other on the beach.
Aware of each other's presence.
It's more than enough.
There's no place that I rather be.
But just to be by his side.
Through him, I begin to believe, to see hope and light in the heart.
It all began on the Sept 10, 2006...
He brought me to this breath-taking place, unknown to me, to all.
I didn't believe Singapore has such a beautiful place hidden away.
As usual, he always suprises me with the unknowns.
Never once a moment bore with him, for I'll always be acquiring new knowledge.
This was where he touched me with his sincerity, the heart which he made. *pic below*
Like lighthouse that guides lost ships back to safety, he used his sincerity and heart to lead me back on track. His heart, made of many smalls lights, cut from straws and soaked cotton with fluoroscent liquid captured my heart.
As the saying goes, "We cannot do all great things, but we can do small things with great love."
He's the living example of the saying.
Till the end, sincerity breaks all walls.
Till The End
All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That’s holding me all night
I don’t know how I found you
I’m thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold to keep to share
In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'd always be with you until the very end
In this world there is no place I’d rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through it all I know you come to see that you’re the one till the end
All my friends around me
Say you’ll be gone too soon
Baby I’m gonna make them see …
We found our way back home
In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'd always be with you until the very end
In this world there is no place Id rather be
You are my life my soul my girl
And through it all , I know you’ve come to see that you’re the one till the end
We'll always be....
till the end......
Ladies up in here tonight
No fightin', no fightin'
We got the refugees up in here
No fightin', no fightin'
Shakira, Shakira
I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man want to speak Spanish
Como se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casa
Shakira, Shakira
Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body
I'm on tonight
You know my hips don't lie
And I'm starting to feel it's right
All the attraction, the tension
Don't you see baby, this is perfection
Hey Girl, I can see your body movin'
And it's driving me crazy
And I didn't have the slightest idea
Until I saw you dancin'
And when you walk up on the dance floor
Nobody cannot ignore the way you move your body, girl
And everything so unexpected - the way you right and left it
So you can keep on shaking it
I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man want to speak Spanish
Como se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casa
Shakira, Shakira
Oh baby when you talk like that
You make a woman go mad
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body
And I'm on tonight
You know my hips don't lie
And I am starting to feel you boy
Come on lets go, real slow
Don't you see baby asi es perfecto
Oh I won't deny my hips don't lie
And I am starting to feel it's right
All the attraction, the tension
Don't you see baby, this is perfection
Shakira, Shakira
Oh boy, I can see your body moving
Half animal, half man
I don't, don't really know what I'm doing
But you seem to have a plan
My will and self restraint
Have come to fail now, fail now
See, I am doing what I can, but I can't so you know
That's a bit too hard to explain
Baila en la calle de noche
Baila en la calle del dia
Baila en la calle de noche
Baila en la calle del dia
I never really knew that she could dance like this
She makes a man want to speak Spanish
Como se llama, bonita, mi casa, su casa
Shakira, Shakira
Oh baby when you talk like that
You know you got me hypnotized
So be wise and keep on
Reading the signs of my body
Senorita, feel the conga, let me see you move like you come from Colombia
Mira en Barranquilla se baila asi, say it!
Mira en Barranquilla se baila asi
Yeah
She's so sexy every man's fantasy a refugee like me back with the Fugees from a 3rd world country
I go back like when 'pac carried crates for Humpty Humpty
I need a whole club dizzy
Why the CIA wanna watch us? [Shakira/Wyclef Jean]
Colombians and Haitians
I ain't guilty, it's a musical transaction
No more do we snatch ropes
Refugees run the seas 'cause we own our own boats
I'm on tonight, my hips don't lie
And I'm starting to feel you boy
Come on let's go, real slow
Baby, like this is perfecto
Oh, you know I won't deny and my hips don't lie
And I am starting to feel it's right
The attraction, the tension
Baby, like this is perfection
No fightin'
No fightin'
Saw some pictures in the paper
Of a girl I'd met the day before.
I couldn't believe that hours later
I had reporters knockin at my door
But I used to dream about
The life I'm living now and
I didn't think I'd miss those things from the past
And I'm not afraid of leaving
Or letting go of what I had
Cause I realize that now there's no turning back.
Cause (I mean) I'm caught living in a world filled with love
So when tear drops fall from me like rain from above
I can brush my troubles away, know that deep down inside
I got sun shining in my life
I used to think I could get better
My girlfriends always used to get me wrong
Some just sent messages, love letters
But those kinda feelings never lasted long
Cause now the only love I find's within a castle made of sand
And when the tide goes out it's swept away.
Though I got my peace of mind
And time is firmly on my side
And through the battles I can safely say
Cause (I mean) I'm caught living in a world filled with love
So when tear drops fall from me like rain from above
I can brush my troubles away, know that deep down inside
I got sun shining in my life.
I'm caught living in a world filled with love
So when tear drops fall from me like rain from above
I can brush my troubles away, know that deep down inside
I got sun shining in my life.
Tomorrow, May 6, 2006, will determine PAP's fate and the direction which Singapore will be heading for the next 4 years. I have been following the news on the general election progress. The oppostion parties and PAP's rallies. Pity though, I wanted to attend the rallies tonight. But my boyfriend's doing duty... No choice, 4 years later then.
Received my progress package of $800. Splendid! My 21st red packet. Perfect timing. But sadly though, I'm not given a chance to vote in the general election. How I envy those people staying in Hougang area. Lots of rallies and actions going on. Such a pity that my home *under the district of Tanjong Pagar* is under MM. For your information, MM does not mean Mushmom *maplesea*. I nearly fainted when I was talking to one of my guild friends about the general election, I mentioned MM, and he said, Mushmom??? =.='''
Back to the topic, well, in order to contest against MM *minister mentor* Lee Kwan Yew, that guy must be either a filthy rich guy who has too much money to spend on lawsuits and defamation which MM will most probably send him as a greeting letter the very next day of his contestation, or he's a nuthead. Besides reading the newspapers on the general election, I've been watching the polling broadcasts and also interviews with the MM Lee and PM Lee Hsien Long *MM Lee
son*. Honestly speaking, I was quite irritated with MM Lee's interview, because he did not allow the interviewers to posing their questions and he just interrupts countlessly. Daddy said it's his way of showing his authority and standing. Well, that's quite true, considering the fact that he was a lawyer in the past. *That also means most probably I'll end up speaking like him if I'd continued my dream of being a lawyer* GOD!!!!
One of the opposition party, the SDP *Singapore Democratic Party* led by the infamous Dr Chee Soon Juan *if I've spelt his name correctly* and his sister, and their usual tatics, or should I say antics? I'm amazed that SDP still insist on running in the general election. I mean, their party is in such a disarray!!! How can they go for war? They had already been given the famous SEE YOU IN COURT scene, the party has already split in the "Apologise to MM" and the "Fat Hope if you want me to apologise", which now only leaves the Chee siblings. At first it was only 4 of the party members who decided to apologise, but now, all of the party members except the Chee siblings have already apologised to MM in one way or another. I'm totally so turn off by Dr Chee. I don't agree with his ways of contesting. At least learn from Chiam See Tong! Somemore he's given a title of a Dr. Please don't make a fool of yourself anymore.
I quite like Chiam's style of opposition. He gives me the impression that he clearly knows what he's doing, what his consequences of his actions and most importantly, he doesn't not act rashly and throw accusations but does his homework to justify his statements. *He also resembles a little of my late grandfather*. I was quite disappointed that I couldn't vote, but Daddy said, "Crazy. Vote for what? Waste time and need to queue. You think very fun?"
Hmmm... Well, he voted 3 times before! So of course he can say that. He'd his fair share of voting. All I hoped is that the next elected party will consider the issues of increasing tuition fees in tertiary education, transportation in Singapore and increasing living expenditure. I just finished my 2nd year in NTU and I've already had my tuition fee increase twice. The reasons given are better lecturers, equipments blah blah blah... LIAR! I don't see any improvements in the lecturers! My analog electronics lecturer speaks Hokkien during all of hislectures! IS THAT AN IMPROVEMENT? Those students like me who don't understand a single F*CK about Hokkien lose out! And those laboratory sessions, it's the same experiment for the past 3 years! One of my friend's senior told him, we're doing the same experiment he did 2 years ago! WHERE THE HELL IS MY INCREASED IN TUITION FEE GONE TOO? Gone to re-painting NTU buildings? WHAT THE F*CK! Children of rich parents do not have any problems with the increase in fees. But what about students like me who come from less-well-to-do families and they have to sign loans from bank to pay their fees? And how many of Singaporeans are filthy rich?
The elected party also better do something about transportation in Singapore. I went to the May Day concert with my friends, Yongyun and Sufeng. We decided to head to Geylang for supper. When we finished our supper and head to the train station, it was 11.50pm and we've missed the last train. So I'm stucked in Singapore without a train home. Bus? Cab? What if I've missed my last bus as well? I resorted to taking a cab home. Just don't understand why PAP have to restrict the transportation modes. I understand that if SBS don't allow 24 hours service because the drivers have to rest. I also understand if SMRT don't allow 24 hours service because their staff also have to rest. But how about having a 24 hours train auto controlled like the NEL *north east line* train?
Lastly, the living expenditure in Singapore keeps increasing. But I don't see my parents salary increasing. And my parents don't even give me allowance. My monthly allowance is on loan from NTU, which I'll have to pay back when I graduate. Which in turn add another burden to me with the increasing tuition fee. How I wish my surname's Lee, a relative of MM or PM *but not my feminine guy friend Lee Kin Leong, that will be a nightmare*. Increase GST, upgraded lifts and rooms we have to pay for ourselves. I totally agree with Chiam See Tong. Why should we pay for the lifts to stop at every floor? It should be given free! What if there's a block of aged people living, is the party gonna demand them to pay for the lifts to operate at every floor? We pay taxes, pay for CPFs, which is being controlled by the PAP, which they say it's to help us save for our old age. I agree. But what if that person is only left with a few months to leave. Can he not enjoy himself? So many restrictions. Feeling the anger seeping into me...
Am I against the PAP? Am I a supporter of Chiam See Tong? No. I'm neither. I just wished that the elected party of 2006 will help ease some of my problems. Hope I won't see a greeting letter from the police when I submit this blog entry. I repeat, I'm not in favour of any party! JUST GET MY PROBLEMS SOLVED!
Alrighty! Tomorrow's the last paper. Less than 12 hours to go... I'm nervous... YIKESSSSS!!!
3 more to go...
PS: I've got a blog entry which I'm so tempted to blog it now. But time is precious... I'll blog it after my exams... It has some linkage to my buddy's favourite topic, i.e., boobs. BUT IT'S NOTHING OFFENSIVE nor as interesting as his blog entry. So don't expect much.
I know is a tough temptation to u... better be careful and keep focus... just a few weeks more and u can enjoy the 2 months holiday...
Ugghhh!!! I'm resisting the temptation to slack and game. I cannot! Have to study! Exams will be over... I can't wait for exams to be over!!! I'm already in the holiday mood! GOSH!!!! SLAP ME!!!
4 more to go...
Ever wondered how to keep a relationship on-going and to prevent it from becoming stale? I'm a firm believer in engaging my partner in interesting and intellectual stimulating topics, i.e., debatable subjects. However, I realised that not everyone is interested. My boyfriend is fuming now, after I started the conversation on "The Oppression of Women. Does equality really exist?".
Obviously I'm in the proposition party. Duh... My boyfriend doesn't agree with me. That's nothing suprising to me. I mean, which guy will say, "Oh yes! You're right. Women are still being oppressed." I do have guy friends who have views and opinions as I do ( they're in the same humanitities lecture group as me ). So, I'm not forcing my boyfriend to change his view, just that I wish to broaden his perception. Humanities helps one to be aware of the society, culture and life. I'm not saying that everything that humanities teaches us are right. But it enhances our awareness and allows us to see things in different perceptions. I just want to have an interesting conversation with my boyfriend. But it turn out the exact opposite. He was fuming mad and even said, " It's very frustrating talking to you."
I'm not picking on him, nor his viewpoints. I just pointed out to him the loopholes of his argument. Alright. I might have been too carried away with my debate ( I can't help it. I represented my class in college in debating - I'm not being snobbish here alright. I'm just a girl with a very strong sense of desire to debate ).
When we hunged up, I took the initiative to send him a SMS, apologising if I'd in anyway insulted him during our conversation, which he replied that he's angry and he wished that I'd cherish the time spent with him. I sent him another SMS to apologise and said that I'll not start such topics anymore. Which he replied in the fuming tone that he's angry at me not because of the topic but I chose the wrong time to start such a conversation and thus he's late for his class. I was confused because at one point of time, he said that he's frustrated with talking to me, in an unconceding tone. The next point of time, he's mad at me for making him late for class. So which is which?
I started this debatable topic during our conversation because I realised that our conversations are becoming more related to superficial topics. I believe that in a healthy relationship, sometimes the couple must engage themselves to intellectual stimulating conversations so as to keep the relationship alive. To put it bluntly, if I wanted my boyfriend to just talk about superficial topics with me everyday throughout our relationship, I don't see the need to break up with my ex, because he's a very good candidate to a stale relationship with no intellectual challenging topics to converse it. My apologies to those whom I may have offend, but that's my stand. Take it or leave it.
It's the time of the half yearly stressful event. EXAMS!!!! Shucks! I'm so gonna be a goner in like 2 days time!!!! HOW HOW HOW?!??!?! I feel sick, feel stressed, feel stretched out emotionally, physically and mentally. I HATE THAT FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM!!!! I feel so dead...
Hou Hsiao Hsien's latest film, Three Days, is out! I'm sooooo gonna watch it after my exams! Hopefully it's still screening by then. I'm sooooo excited! I wanna watch!!!!
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